I'm Sorry!!

Have you ever been so scared of something that you don't want to explain it because you know you messed up. When you did something so bad that you can never take it back no matter how hard you try. Its eating at your body and you can't stop it. All you think is how can I mess up that bad. The fact that you can never take it back or say sorry to make it all better. Its eating at you and all you can do is be scared of it. Everybody makes comments about your weight but don't understand why. They make comments about how you look different but they never ask what is wrong. You want someone to tell you its going to be okay and that it will work out in the end but you know its either going to keep eating at you or just go away. When you want to believe its just going to go away but you know its not going to. The pain hurts and I know it won't go away. I messed up and I just want to take it back and say sorry. I'm not blaming anybody I just want it to go away!