Do you?

Have you ever had that feeling that you didn't want to be here and it would be easier for everybody around you if you weren't here. I get that feeling  and thought all the time. I have messed up a lot and I honestly do think that sometimes it would be easier to just be dead. I told my cousin the other day that I deserve to die and that I am a horrible person. She told me that everybody deserves to live and just because we make mistakes doesn't mean that you deserve to die. I honestly do think that I deserve to die especially after what I did. It is hard to get through that thinking but you have to remember that there are people that love you and care about you and it would hurt them if you would die. I think all the time that no one cares about me and no one would care if I wasn't here but there are people you love and care about me. If I didn't have the people in my life right now I know for a fact I wouldn't be here today. I am glad I have people in my life that love me and care about me!