lost

I try really hard just to be myself and not the person who everybody wants me to be. I try hard not to do things that I don't like to do or don't want to do. Lately I have been doing things that I don't like to do. I want to say no  but I am afraid he won't want me around anymore or even want anything to do with me. I know that sounds really bad and I know that if he really cares about me he would accept my decision, but I don't want to try. I don't want to say no because I am scared of losing him. I know that sounds pathetic but its the truth. I really don't want to lose him. I just don't know what to do!