You're not good enough!

Have you ever been told that you're not good enough? I was told that everyday when I was growing up. I wasn't good enough to have a dad who cared. I wasn't good enough to have a mom that was always there for me. I wasn't good enough to have a guy love me for who I am and not just because I will have sex with them. I wasn't good enough for anybody not even myself. Even through placement I wasn't good enough. After awhile of not being good enough I just started to do what people asked me to do without ever arguing with them.
I was there when people needed a ride somewhere. I was there when a guy needed sex. I was there when someone wanted to beat someone up but didn't want to get into trouble so they called me. I was there when someone needed to blame something that they did on someone else and it was always me they called. I never stood up for myself because I was afraid of not being good enough.
I lost the only guy I loved the most because I never stood up for myself and I had sex with other guys when we were dating. I still let people use me til this day.
I have never been good enough and I honestly don't think I will be good enough in the future.