Do you still wish?

I always promised myself that the next day would be better and things would be different, but that day will never come! I remember when we would all put music in and dance and sing no matter what mood we were in. Big man wasn't born yet so it was just us girls.  Whenever we came home you were always in the bathtub and we always sat around the bathtub and told you about our day and told you why we cried or why we felt sad, and you always just sat there and listened and then when you got out you always hugged us! I miss it just being us three!  When us three were together we always smiled, and we were always there for eachother! Until that day we all let him control us! Mom married him, he was our step-dad before we knew it. There was no more us three girls anymore! None of us were oursleves anymore. Nanners and I were always hurt and mom was always working. He took everything that we had that we could call family. Now mom has picked a new man and nanners and big man still live with mom. Where does that leave me? Mom kicked me out when I was 16 because I didn't agree with some of the choices that she was making and I told her that. I am not part of the family anymore. I still wish that we could go back and relive those moments but I realize that none of us will ever be the same! I really do miss those days and I do think about them every single day. I love my mom and my sister and my brother with all my heart!!!