I hate that I love you

I am done letting people in so they can hurt me. I asked him one question and he took it as a joke. My feelings are not funny. I am a human too. I might not make it look like I care but I do more than you know. I am starting to think that I am putting more into our relationship than you are. I know what you tell people that the only reason why we are together is because I couldnt handle being friends with benefits, but thats not even close to it. I couldnt be that because I actually am in the love with you. Today and right now I am regretting that I even met you. All I want to do is punch you in the face because you don't care about me and  it showed. All I want to do is scream at you as loud as I can. I hate that I love you. I hate that I care so much  to the point that all I have to do is look at you to change my mind that I am mad at you. All you have to do is touch me to make me smile and not feel mad or sad. I only wish I can tell you all this.